Saturday, August 30, 2003
hateration saturday. i'm drawing the line of all my outtings. so i'm spending my worthless saturdays at home. more or less keeping myself busy by chatting online with people just like me, spending their day at home slackin. kinda needa save up cash for asean night at school. it's like a fusion event. supposedly a seventieth anniversary celebration for my school but to cut cost, it's joint with my school's seniors graduation night. so more or less anyone is invited. even outsiders. hmmmms. talkingg to none other than jielun online. the way he speaks is so humourous and kinda interesting. i'm quite enjoying it and i've been addictedly talking to hiim for the past erm reaching six hours. just a little more time and i'll be heading for dinner with my mummy. i'm such a sweet daughter huh. spendingg my saturdays with my mummy. beams*. oh wells. i'm off to talk a little while more and thenn spendd my time couchingg potato infront of the telly.
continuation [1241am]
just got back home like not too long ago. had a long de-stressing bathe and now lazing around. damnned church classes tomorrow. and it's a must to go or else i won't be confirmed this year. gees. religion can be stricty sometimes. so glad :) filled my tummy up with yummy expensive food. after the whole week, i actuallyy laid all my stresses into that bowl of baked rice from swensons. relieving! hmmms anyways thanks to that someone* and hayleyy for keeping me company at night. anddd thank you extra muchh to that someone* for thatt really sweett gift. reallyy cheered me up. didn't have to go through so muchh for that. oh wells. i'm really appreciating it loads. means oogles to me
4:42:00 PM
her point of view;
Friday, August 29, 2003
confused. wondered. just got back from school. geeee. half-day at school cos' of teacher's day. oh wells. oogles of people didn't turn up. our school had it's be-yourself-day which meant everyone could wear what they wanted to. but for a group of us, we rocked on with our school uniforms. some peoplee looked so awkard, nerdy, slutty or poseurish. gees. i gott so disgusted seeing this girl with a skate board. gimme a break. well i gotta hand it to them for being so damn daring by bringing their boards with them to school for people to gossip about. beams*. i'm so confused for faezah. she's got so many misconceptions and confusions and otherr loads of weight on her. butt afterall, cheer up : ) look at thee bright sidee of things. that zana is justt so plainn stealish. who gives a flyying about her. oh wells. will continue tonight. time ta bathe, change and headd on out with disco girl! woohooobeams*.
faezah: aye. i'm reallyy sorry i couldn't console you orr bee theree for you all the time. but in class i'm physically here. i can'tt warm you up well butt i'll tryy to add laughter and smiless to yourr sheepishhh sad looks. try to make you sizzle abit just now but didn't work. you prolly got only moree irritated. oh wells. no matter what, i'mm alwaes here. beams*
continued [1132pm]. yupps. i'm home! yawns. so tired. spent thee rest of my afternoon slacking at cine with none other than my best mates, everina and lutfi and my sweeet giver, mavis. honoured*. oh wells. they're my really cracky funny bunch. todayy kindaa had manyy people oozing around town. coincidentallyy met some positivee yet negative people. but afterall, my dayy was fun-filled. met up with someone* afterr that with my loving couple and her guy. chilledd out for awhile and thenn headedd home to continue our undone chilling. but feltt so tired and pooped. needdd my sleeep now or else i'm gonna get black bags under my goo goo's. nights e'one.
1:44:00 PM
her point of view;
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
absurd. totally absurd and weird. i toldd lim lee that i wanted a double decker-bed so badly and he gave me some cocked up remark such as :"why do you always like to be different from being normal." likee is wanting a double-decker so abnormal? every other little kid prolly has one like sayy for example my other half, faezah. is she abnormal or something? andd he also remarkedd by sayingg that i was being rebellious for wanting a double-decker bed. i'm sure every other person would want a wider bed. but my room ain't gigantic for a super comfy wide bed. so i guess something lengthy would be good. anddd for instance if i get thhose modern beds with desks at the bottom in replacement of a bed, then it'll be space-saving. uhhuh! haha. alright change of subject. darn tmr would be a laanky thursday. bleahs. hate thursday blues. stupid social studies lessons and draggy biology classes. urghh. gotta run now. furniture shopping with my mummy at ikea. toodles.
continuation. [0903pm-] argh. i'm so angry. so so so angry. i could burn my room down. all my damn mother's idea of getting the computer outta my room. now i'll be living in doom. so alone without my com or my music. and of all places to shift it to, it has to be in their room. gimme a break. andd to make space for the com, they are taking all their shit and nicely laying it in my room. what do they think my room is? a storeroom to store their old useless junk!
wait till i show them my attitude. i'm gonna throw my weight around too. i may be little but wait and see. damnn them bigtime. gees.
"there are a hundred reasons why i should give up * but you're the one reason i keep going"
3:54:00 PM
her point of view;
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
this entry goes out especially to that someone whom i've let down the most, recently. i won't be mentioning names. but i'm sure you know crystal clear whooo exactly you are.
heree goes: wells it's been a prolly short time and it's been too serious. i guess i wasn't clear of what i was doing. i'm sorryy for the sudden let down. buttt i do really treasure those really quirky times. outsidee the hyatt as we giggled away looking at thosee weird "woman". reallyy madee me cheer up after my downful day. manageddd to put on a smilee after that. after what you've done for me has a great deal on me. you've committed so muchh yet so little time. and all i did was think nothing and create an end like this whhich was too sudden. time. that's all i needd. but if you can't wait, then i guess we'll let it go from here. but no matter what, you're always my bestest friend. andd you can still giggle and laugh with me, go shoppping and spendd oogles of hours together. maybee we can catchh up on my math too. needs loadsa work to build me up buttercup*. keepp in touch. don't wanna let this squabble ruin our "once-so-ever-perfect" friendship. tickles--*
too serious. too soon. *
9:53:00 PM
her point of view;
Monday, August 25, 2003
argh. so many things going on around the communication sectors. now even the internet is starting to turn bad. with all these horrible geniuses forming viruses, it gets our computers at risk. even downloading songs has become a boo-boo. argh. now it takes us oogles of time to move our folders here and there, creating confusion. but to be not at risk and safe, i'll just stop piracy, for now. but honestly, buying cds are a total waste of cash. i meann. after all, at the end, we throw em' away like trash. sometimes piracy has it's goods and bads. oh wells. kazaa is getting on my nerves. tee-hee. gonna make myself some delicious lunch!
1:25:00 PM
her point of view;
Sunday, August 24, 2003
[totally oogles about the new jewel song. stand. it's so refreshing']
still feeeling sick as ever. since thursday till now. my throats feeling soarry and when i cough, it feels like my intestines are making a wrong turn and squeezing outta my oesaphagus right outta my mouth. deep loud harsh wreakening sounds. argh. when will this unsightful thing go away. people stare at me when i coughh out in the public. like hello!, the SARS case is over. it's only a mere deep coughs and a feww wet sneezes. gee. oh wells. having a headache right now and gonna log off. enjoy my refreshing song lyrics . *
walk in a corner shop
see a shoplifting cop
see the old lady with a gun
see the hero try 2 run
nothing's what it seems, I mean
it's not all dirty, but it's not all clean
there's children paying bills
there's monks buying thrills
there's pride for sale in magazines
there's pills for rent 2 make u clean
marvin gaye, there's no brother, brother
woody guthrie's land can't feed Mother
mothers weep, children sleep
so much violence ends in silence
it's a shame there's no one 2 blame
for all the pain that life brings
if u will just take me It might just complete me
and together we can make a stand
a waitress brings me lunch
we meet but do not touch
on TV, D.C. is selling lies
while in the corner, King's dream dies
go 2 the counter, pay for me and my friend
a homeless man pulls out a roll, says it's on him
the mayor has no cash
he said he spent it on hookers and hash
you will love me, i will love you.
//jewel.stand.
8:28:00 PM
her point of view;
Saturday, August 23, 2003
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears i held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me i've been alone all along . . *
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12:03:00 PM
her point of view;
Friday, August 22, 2003
urgh. i am in so no mood today even though it's a wonderful bright friday. don't know why either. hmmms. guess it's just stuff that i'm brooding over. oh wells. hope tommorrow is a brighter day. afterall, there's gonna be a bbq andd i hope alot of people turn up yupps. caught that korean horror flick today. about the two sisters. hmms. couldn't even understand. it's too oh-so-complicated. and half the time i was coughing so badly. it felt as if my stomach was gonna make a wrong turn and end up coming outta my mouth. ergh. you'd just wanna wipe those feelings out. hmms. i can't seem to get that //lesley ann thing out! sheesh. okies. i'm really feeling horrible so i'll just end my blabber here.
11:45:00 PM
her point of view;
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
hurry someone. get me that sequined bag from british india. i'm running outtaa cash and patience and yupps i need a pencil case to. becos some itchy finger people usedd the pen knifee and teared it. hmpphh. but thaanks to that, i can now gett a new one. smartchick! skipped school today. bad soar throat. it's so damnn itchey gitchey. i can feeel he sides of my throat ickles when i swallow my own damn enzymes. hmmps. gimmee a break. arggh! so happyy. just thought of one more reason why you people should buy my that bag. * chaching* . i did absolutely well for my chinese continual assessment. 27/50. not say that's a splendid result but for a low classs chinese brain like mine where i hardly give a damnn to that sickening subject, it's like getting a degree! hahas. alright. but not say my lifee is completed. ahahs. there's still the finals to come by and i guess that's gonna be a time of rushing and stressedd out screamings. hahas : ) gonna takee a restt nows. ta-ta*
duanne//my one and only: hey's girl. it's your special day ayes. haahs. wells you enjoyy it ooogles yupps and cum. saturday, i'm sure we're all gonna have a splendid day. yupps. anyways. i'm reallyy happy now somehow. me you and hayleyy are all equal. gees. for once in our life this situation comes by ayes. takkaire smuchker and your malaysian.
1:19:00 PM
her point of view;
Monday, August 18, 2003
i've oogles to say that i'm in loveee with this bag fromm british india. yupps. soo if this message can't get through to you thenn i guess you're just plainnn dumbb. it's so prettty withh coloured sequins on it anddd a reallyy cutee indian kindda design on it. soo yupps. i'll just endd here. //sms me for moreee details yupps.
6:46:00 PM
her point of view;
Sunday, August 17, 2003
my day was filled with rainbows. went out with *someone. caught the new unborn moviee at plaza. not bad. typical asian horror movies. they seemed to obsessed with water. gees. thenn we walkeddd to cine to get a drinkk and sit by the railing. whichh was when we mett tania* gorgeous girl. hehs. so happyyy nows. oh wells. best time of my life. it's so unexplainable. and it so ends here. i'm off to dreaming.
9:15:00 PM
her point of view;
Saturday, August 16, 2003
well. my birthday's coming. well i can't actually tell you what i wished for because birthday wishes are all soul secrets -- seems that the only way they'll come true. i'm being so quirky. i wannaa havee a birthday party mans. so muchh anticipation and excitement winding up till twenty eight of september. harhar. i've been eating so damnn much. where's my weight watcher. i needa stick to fruits since i detest veggies like hell. hmmms. and i need to go shopping. i saww this really pretty pink flats from gripz and i'm gonna have it! anyone wanna donate? it's too ex for my budget! or the reallyy pretty pink perforated long wallet from surfbabes. that's pretty too. where's all my cash! i'm so needing a digital camera. exp the exilm. it's just so gorgeous. i wantt eitherr the silver or the frozen mauve colour. but again where's my money. bleahs. well think i should go update my [must-have] lists. ta.
1:01:00 PM
her point of view;
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
seems pretty long since i updated. it was a last minute thing on friday that me and duanne decided to go to kuala lumpur on saturday morning. pretty knocked out though. argh. five hour ride! and alas we reached. the coach was quite fun and they played hot chick. there was this super duper cute indian buy behind us and he seemed too intelligent for his age. spoke so much and knew so many god damn things. haahas. wells. we had real fun there. shopping was great. managed to get so many things. we stayed over at her uncle's place at kajang not far from the townny area. hmmms. he is so filthy rich! he stayed in a four storey bungalow thing. and it was him and his wife onlly. and there was so many rooms! like seven or so? the toilet was prolly the size of my room times three. had a shower and a tub both! the rooms were spectacular and the pool made a great deal. we swam there at night and just splashed around like fools. hmmms. dinner was great. she cooked serious deliciously delighful food. i'm quite the fussy sort. detest veggies and seafood. but everything seemed to be friendly to my taste buds so i just gulped down everything. urgh! so missing it. we were so oogled by the time it came nine so we slept early. the journey home was really dready. it's ilke six hours including jams and immigration stops. reached singapore at two am on tuesday morning. skeeped school on monday. hehs. really enjoyed myself heeps. i'm missing it. hope i can do this more often : ) tooo snooped!
6:01:00 PM
her point of view;
Thursday, August 07, 2003
just got home. school sent me home. wasn't feeling well. totally turned pale. thanks to the stupid rehearsal for friday's national day celebration in the morning. we were made all to stand for like half an hour or so? just to hear some dumb recollection and sing the anthem twice? punishment-like. so right now i'm home. getting pretty much some peace and quite and soon i'll be having my yummy porridge. was totally freaked and weak. turned pale and broke up in cold sweat. was made to sit down while everyone stoood up. felt so weak and puky. at least i got to skip my dumb social studies lessons. damn those lessons.
to be continued.
9:34:00 AM
her point of view;
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
dead beat tired and confused about some issues. one side, i see a really happy relationship going on between my friend and her guy. next, i see one with so many problems and the next is just so confused as she hardly gets to see him but only on the weekends. is actually being available and preety much single a better life? i guess there's more freedom and stuff but those feelings you wish to have aren't there. wells. i hope that everything clears up for my friend. guess you're having alot of problems here and there, in and out. but i know you're strong but yet at times stubborn. but i'm sure things will turn out for the best. afterall. the saying goes that mistakes makes things better. you'll get to understand him more. just have the patience. after all, guys are like babies. need tons of attention and watching out. gees. school was like normal but kinnda relaxed from this minute onwards. i have yummy dinner awaiting me and so many free periods tommorrow. gees. guess i'll be able to talk things out with my poor little darling. she needs me. hiacks. i'm off // don't try to act like your too good for this floor.
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5:19:00 PM
her point of view;
Saturday, August 02, 2003
yups so it's a total brand new day huh. but sadly, i have to say i have no plans. so i'm just grooving at home and feeling abit ill. what a saturday! when everyone's out having fun, i'm just sitting here feeling ill, tired and dead bored. there's nothing least interesting to catch on the telly. feeling quite ached. pretty hungry. didn't have lunch and it's about to be dinner time and i have totally no clue as to what to eat for dinner. prolly having a take away or some sort. life is getting boring each day and can you imagine how many achey breaky years you'll be existing? suppose to meett eric but he's having work right now and by timee he get's off it'll be quite late so i'll just swap the whole thing. so there goes one plan down. suppose to meet shar and xiao xiangg at east coast park but just to damned lazy to travel there. so there goes one down too. actually i had a few plans but my body is telling me i'm too lazy to do anything but sleep which is what i just did and missed another of my plans : ( hmmms. wells i gotta go take my temperature and settle down to something interesting to do. arghhh. i'm dying. be right back!
7:08:00 PM
her point of view;
yups. long day. i just so protest again social studies lessons. they so make me just wanna get away and run fast from it. not that i like or hate the subject just that i've been so patient with the damn teacher that she starts testing my tolerance! gosh. she's so god-damn-annoying. likee she kept my test paper for ages. doesn't it kindda tells you that if you have my damnn paper, during the next lesson, you should bring it up for me to take it? but no! she kindda does it the total opposite! and says super-sarcastic things. like as if i should perform some magical spell on my paper to suddenly appear! gimmee a break. andd she kindda gets the idea that me and faezah gossip alot during her lessons that she had to make a really horrid remark :" all faezah does is speak sweet-nothings into your ears". gee. when will she ever quit her crapping. she should get a new day job. she's just a total piss off! wells let's get diverting to something else. pretty much nothing happened today. schhool. home and got changed and met sharin andd amanda who i haven't seenn for quite some time. it's what poly does to you. make you stay so busy as ever. wells. finallaye caught up for heer damn burger dinner and walked abit. gee. i came across this really adoringly cute fella. he could make your lower jaw just fall deep down! : ) he had a kinndaa good dress sense and his hair was so perfect that it fell across so nicely on his face. hmmms. wells. i should just cut my crap nows. hahas. anways. so god damnn pissed with my mom and i'm so *depressed* . just don't know what to do yupps. gonna takee a rest now thens. gone!
12:23:00 AM
her point of view;
