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Friday, July 30, 2004

my caption today: silence fails you.
ah, i could think of a handful of chinese phrases and answers to questions before i entered the examination room.
talking it out with maysi and munyoke made me feel a notch more confident then before.
i could suddenly feel less tension and eased out.
not until the fifteen girls infront of me had taken their turns and the seat was empty for me to fill in to sit and prepare with the normal paragraph reading section.
that came to me as horror when i could only recognise a quarter of what was printed on that sheet of paper filled with gazillion chinese characters.
it felt so foreign.
i could simply prepare that in a good one minute.
the time i was in the room was another good five quick minutes.
i skipped or HMMMPHED the unknown chinese characters away.
the feeling itself, is fearful at its best.
i had then composed my own paragraph that made absolutely no sense.
onto the conversation quota, i could bet on my infected ears, i kept my mouth sewn up.
i said nothing at all.
and i repeat, NOTHING came out.
i sat there in redness and my tactics of crying wouldn't help in that point of time.
it was so silent, you could hear the traffic outside, even with the windows closed tightly.
AH.
i screwed it up.
and to think it's my N' level orals, i could just eat my toenails for a week.
i don't expect to pass with flying colours or even for that matter, have a passing grade.
all i wanted was for some mispronouced words to come out.
at least say something then to sit there and look at the HDB's outside.
i felt foreign and that's all i have to say.
nothing beats today.

but to add life to my day apart from the dreary event, i had my joy ride.
cheap thrill, clara.
it lasted half an hour and a mouthful of whining and direction telling.
gabriel finally drove me in his chic car.
we talked and had seconds of arguements over road directions but it was all good.
the word: groovy.
no stops were made for ben and jerry's or an ice milo or food but just loud emo punk music and the cool aircon.
i could sleep.
alright.
it's my scheduled friday night for painting my nails and another drive later for milo with my sister and her friend.
zai jian.

10:01:00 PM

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Sunday, July 25, 2004

most importantly.
there was a current entry in which i said positive stuff about joleen.
sheesh, you people shouldn't get the wrong idea.
i don't like her in that kinda way, whichever way you'll took it.
it happened when me and joleen were talking and i decided to write something on our past dysfunctional friendship.
so snap outta' it.
haha.

alright, getting back on track.
our school's walkathon cum racial harmony celebration on friday was a tiring but blastful event.
the walk was dead tiring.
no, i didn't count the kilometres but imagine from st theresa's convent to the very top of labrador park and back down to school.
thanks to invention of mobile phones, that was greatly needed since i needed some humour whilst walking and company.
my partners, mun and rina were just fabulous.
we laughed our ways back and forth.
then came this really high up stairs.
though it was long and windy, don't you think the scenary is great?
not to joleen, since it made her hair stand.
but i'd think that would make a good entrance to my future bungalow in the future.
haha.
guess i'm made of dreams.
oh wells the whole walk was a lasting two hours and fifty minutes and a bottle of water.
i still majorly enjoyed it, really.
upon reaching back, it was just changing into our ethnic outfits and enjoying the rest of the night.
i'm a happy girl altogether.
alrights, in a rush to drive overseas.
off.

haemogoblin:
you make me a happy girl, really.

1:54:00 PM

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Sunday, July 18, 2004

i keep thinking about you.
i keep thinking about you.
i keep thinking about you.
i keep thinking about you.
i keep thinking about you.

10:42:00 PM

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admit it you, the last entry was just too good to be true.
though i didn't quite copyright it.
turned out printed on your blog the following next few minutes.
LOL.
anyhooters, today was a-ok.
in my entire week, i was early.
early to meet rachel and her absolute tall standing brother.
from there we lifted off to check my sister out while she worked at gucci.
funny how we acted like customers and pretended that we were interested in the wallets.
there, i saw heaven behind the glass panel.
the pink gucci wallet i've been dying to get into my possession.
sigh with me.
then dragged myself away from the sexy wallet and to take for our daily dosage of ding ding candy or rock candy at taka's food fest.
it's so attractive how the food stares at you from behind the counters.
dur.
got on with our walk and ended up at far east where we walked abit and got janet's sister a birthday gift.
simple but pretty; white butterfly earrings with black glitter smothered on the top?
when the clock stated six o'clock, we had to get our glass slippers to janet's place for her sister's bbq.
i'd say overall, it was pretty good.
a-ok!
we re-lived our childhood again, throwing cups of water at each other and hiding out in undergroud carparks and small holes.
it was just great clean/wet fun.
it cheered me up not until sadness filled in.
wouldn't say it here for now.
that's in my own personal non-online diary to be filled in.
and for now, i'm leaving here for some rest
smiggles.

1:00:00 AM

her point of view;

Friday, July 16, 2004

she can knock you off your feet making you wonder how fast she can metamorphosize.
a caterpillar to a soon pretty butterfly, right?
this female catches the eye of many; she stands out from the rest during a morning assembly.
a leo and she sticks by it.
with never a smile on her face, she'd make you feel awkward right on the spot.
she's pretty much only afraid of: ah lians.
yes, upon seeing a certain one, she'd drag herself away from the corridor and yes, hide behind a wall.
she and i have the happy hours and the gloomy peak hours.
peak hours is the allocated time where no smiling or conversing is ever exchanged; perhaps not even a glance too.
happy hours are then the times when we'd meet, after school cirriculum time.
be it, study or dinner with the non-fussies.
a girl with brains but just uber lazy.
one who exacts my style of lanvin and sony ericsson.
a leech to my mechanical pencil.
the water-holic who will not sleep unless ten bottles of evian is put along the bedside.
is almost a friendly one; i said almost.
isn't bright when it comes to spelling the word: quiet.
or might i say queit.
smiled at me making me think that sharks fin soup was salted vegetable soup.
laughs at me all the time.
she thinks i'm a escapee from woodbridge, don't you?
hates studying with me cos' i'm just an entertainer.
vandalises my book and is happy after.
like an eraser, she clears the blues away.
NO to red.
moisturizers her face and turns up late for school.
when being late for school, and slapped with a punishment of running around the field, she'd later be proud that she ran fast.
boohoo.
say goodbye to her and hello miss afro.
the new improved blossoming flower.
filled with essential new girlyness injected and vital nutrients, she'd be like anyone of us soon.
she'll gently approve of pretty underwear that's coloured pink?
leaving everyone with a burst of clean fresh thoughts everyday.
be her friend and inject her into your daily life, enjoy and rinse her into your schedules and relax.
better, enjoy the new improved emui.

i'm over and i'm so out.

9:00:00 PM

her point of view;

Thursday, July 15, 2004

i have a masking tape for a name tag.
and with much thought, i think it's nicer than a normal name tag.
putting it on takes less strength and effort, just stick!
HAHA.
anyhoots, i had my N' level oral yesterday.
it didn't go so well.
i spoke in drips and draps.
i was so nervous that i had forgotten a simple word such as: exhibition.
only when i reached the examination room, the word came out of my name.
phew.
the invigilators are friendly and in my opinion, much better than a individual invigilator from my school.
they're friendly and actually start conversations with you.
i felt myself mellowing down the very minute i laid my bum on the chair.
but nervous at first, i turned flaming red.
with two invigilators in front of me, i was in a dilemma as to who i should look at.
instead, it was just me and the paper and glances at them.
horror struck when it came to the conversation section of the whole oral.
i found it hard since there'll be a total english communication breakdown.
LOL.
singlish is my style when speaking.
i had a total of five questions.
and all of a different topic.
. something artistic that i have created
. somthing artistic which i've seen made from simple things
. something artistic that someone i know has made, has made a difference towards me
. are genuises born smart
. a small effort goes a long way

a total wreck but i got it over and done with.
oh wellies.
i need new earrings and a nail makeover tommorrow.
studying for now.
gone.

5:51:00 PM

her point of view;

Monday, July 12, 2004

apologies.
after all, i did try to put them aside.
but where would you like me to place your ton of books on?
the locker top is well filled and so are the lockers which are being shared by thrillions of students.
are you expecting me to carry your ton weighing books home?
all of us did try.
you do know that homeroom starts today and it's necessary for everyone to clear the books from under the tables.
you didn't cause you decided on keeping yourself home since you needed much rest.
sorry it wasn't to your liking and that made you insult us openly which i am quoting from your blog.
i've nothing more to say.
you can blame.
you're the angel and we're the devils.
gosh.
sometimes i wonder when you'll own up as to what you told my sister about me.
gee, she's my sister and she did tell me.
insensitivity.
but sorry that word calls on others too, not just yourself.
sorry.

7:38:00 PM

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Sunday, July 11, 2004

the day before today
i was suppose to meet her for lunch followed by a movie.
a movie which i promised her and was dying to watch.
i was pretty way behind people whom already had caught the movie and were barking sweet nothings about it.
so i was filled with joy at the thought that in two hours, we'd be sitting and watching it.
due to some mishaps, it got shoved out of our schedule.
instead, i attended a gig and later dinner with keanu reeves*.
i'm not disclosing anything.
that'll stay silent for abit.

today
the joys of being out with your dad.
it was movie and great lunch.
i had kenny rogers, a quarter chicken, marcaroni and cheese, mashed potata as my side dishes.
after, it was spiderman.
i agree with keanu reeves* that its a great movie.
graphics and music and spidey himself.
spidey is such a looker.
gee, he's my hero.
alright putting aside my soft side, i'll be heading out for dinner in abit and to pick my sister up from work.
it's thai dinner on the menu.
i'm so up for it :)
aftter this, it'll be back to school and it's new homeroom system and just losing the extra weight wrapped on me.
thats' about it.
love love.

4:23:00 PM

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Thursday, July 08, 2004

i'm super hyper spastic
i lost my sex drive and i'm holdin' out on you.

dang; i'm in a dilemma.
to get three hours of nappy or stay wide awake till the night grows old.
i'm scared to fall asleep and to wake up and only know that i've missed my scheduled nine o'clock chinese drama serial.
so my decision, to stay wide-eyed.
the result of boredom brings me a great feeling.
a great feeling of finished homework.
i have still many others to get done; they're all just lining up my 'to-do' list.
i've not yet applied for my locker and it's so dued.
i need this since the homeroom system is taking place next week.
it's so much of a hassle.
too many things, too little time.
ah.
self proclaimed vacation, please?

5:52:00 PM

her point of view;

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

i could give you a zillion excuses of why my seat is left empty in class today.
this small mosquito size bite has gladly appeared on my neck.
and excuse yourself, it's not any love bite you'd think.
it just apparently appeared there and it's getting painful by the day.
i could nearly think it was a simple sign of cancer!
but not, not to that extent.
so my mum had me stay home.
apart from those tragic thoughts, i came home pretty late last night.
it was dinner with my mum's best friend, katherine.
oh and not forgetting her two sons, whom use to be our play buddies when my sister and i were toddlers.
unfortunate names they carry :(
i had to rush myself to get dressed and ring a taxi.
then i got my ass wrapped in a denim skirt and headed to gucci where my sister spends three quarts of her day working her legs off.
from there it was waiting for her to smoke two ciggarettes and we lifted off to the marina mandarin for a drink, a few snap shots and then dinner at the singapore cricket club.
my my did i have another indulging dinner.
my all-time rib eye steak, well done.
heavenly till we had to go home past elevenish twelve.
it was the basic, talks and catch-ups between all of us.
aunt kat had not long ago arrived from aberdeen and was soon to be departing and heading for los angeles and seattle and more drives from there.
LUCK :)
all i can think now is new york, new york.
i hope bhavik would take me along when he departs and heads back to his good ol` NYU [new york university] where he is smilingly enjoying his studies there :)
but for now, it's more biology studying and tuition in two hours.
i'll lift off from here.
SIGH.

4:48:00 PM

her point of view;

Sunday, July 04, 2004

i got my hair cut.
yes, it's a drastic change from the previous one.
well to me it's drastic since after showering, i could feel myself squirting lesser shampoo.
my shampoo is going to last longer.
i've come to realise that i've tried nearly every hairstyle.
the long, the middle, the nearly short and the obvious short.
anyhoots, my hair isn't the worst i've seen.
addes and i were having a communication breakdown upon deciding my hairstyle.
by the way, addess is thee one who got my hair cut and we're sudden friends.
we were talking whilst cutting my hair and it felt totally awe since she could only converse in chinese and myself in english.
haha.
but during the whole experience, she's super friendly.
and yes, her comment after was: haha, you look like lesbian lor.
that made me feel so much better? [sarcastic]

so after all the fun, we made our way to CHIJMES.
the CHIJ 150th anniversary!
it was not worth the cash.
twenty dollars for a forty five minute show: confessions of two ex-convent girls.
irene ang [from PCK] and koh cheng mun [under one roof].
it was pretty hilarious :)
gollyy hoo.
reminiscence of primary school days when i saw my primary school principal and my oh-so-favourite primary school teacher.
i miss my damned primary school days.
just so much memories :)

ok.
that's my day summed up.
i'm too tired to continue.

appreciates rachel, janet, shuwen, dd and whoever came by :)

12:31:00 AM

her point of view;

Friday, July 02, 2004

i'm not so much of a blogaholic anymore.
i'm going to use this word: enigmatic.
that word is spreading around like philidelphia!

wednesday
i was back to being my old self.
turning no new leaf.
alright i didn't go to school and i'm not guilty of any sort.
the rain was just so heavy and great :)
a great excuse to skip a day of school.
there was no chance of me being on time since i couldn't make no way out of my home.
and with the strike of the lightning, power went off like snap*
pitch black.

thursday
this day is just unexplanable.
trust me when i say it.
that's when confusion sets in.
i've never felt a thousand ways in day.
around the island in 80 feelings.
the lunch was spicy with shuwen, janet, rachel, hayley and myself.
hayley had got merv his birthday present.
[yes merv, you're eighteen]
hayley and i parted from the trio without a clue that later on in the day, there would be upcoming complications.
sadly, hayley lost her brand new wallet.
[and the lost is still counting]
that smurf has lost her wallet more than 7 times this year alone.
complications set in only to know the trio were lost.
uncontactable.
they were practically missing in action :(
now this matter is to remain secret.
nothing will be disclosed in this open diary.
i'm just upset about the trio.
a shock that would equalise to a heart attack.
sigh.
it's over and now and it's left to be learnt by.

friday
my un-studied social studies post test sucked.
i was writing my own account and nothing made sense.
HAHA.
how not surprising?
okay, i must not miss my schedule of painting my nails.
gotta paint!
alcohol kisses.

4:13:00 PM

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