Saturday, August 28, 2004
uploaded pictures; duanne's birthday
the album is under photocliques
the fat percentage is increasing.
my fat uptake is greater than fat loss.
i've rendered my problem: eating disorder. (self proclaimed)
i need to exercise.
i need to eat less.
i need to go on a hunger-strike.
i need dinners, lunches and breakfasts of fruits.
i need fat loss.
2:39:00 PM
her point of view;
Thursday, August 26, 2004
i can finally sleep at ease.
the past few days have been mind wrenching.
last minute studying does not do me any good or perhaps anyone.
i can already predict my results for the preliminary examinations.
unpleasant; disagreeable.
apart from their slightly difficult papers, the exam schedule just wasn't of any help whatsoever.
imagine studying biology, geography and then accounts just for wednesday.
it's simply frustrating.
and the following day, would be chemistry and social studies.
i was shocked on how the accounts paper could've been so difficult.
tackling the questions were just perplexing.
i'm left to sit for a math paper and it's de-stress for the rest of the week.
i'm finding it fearful to pick up a novel to read.
it isn't the right time to read a novel when i've study notes and textbooks smirking at me from my desk.
particularly my social studies.
IRK, i've my social studies N levels in exactly twelve days.
i'm only touching that book next week; a promise.
gee, i hate education sometimes.
on a cooler note, i've a tamagotchi.
[save your laughters]
it's pretty engaging.
this time, tamagotchi's are fitted with infrared ports that actually allow friend-making and finding a partner.
surprising enough, it produces tamababies and not just one but two at a time.
and if you remain a widow for long and age, they'd send you a matchmaker to do the needful.
i'm ecstatic about all this.
HAHA.
okay, it's math tuition and ample rest.
//twelve days to social paper.
5:15:00 PM
her point of view;
Sunday, August 22, 2004
it's the last day of the week and tomorrow is altogether another day.
so many doubts; it's suffocating.
how am i to manage all my difficulties during a week of countless prelim papers?
i'll be floundering while you debilitate.
five days of seven hours of studying.
a day to visit my grandpa in hospital.
yes, my grandpa was admitted to hospital and he's under critical conditions which could worsen through time.
it's hard to accept when a loved one falls ill unexpectedly.
perhaps i've lived my life in such a way that i've not faced a pious situation; i know nothing of handling it.
i find it too oblique.
i'm praying and keeping my hopes to the highest that he'll recover.
i love my grandpa very much despite all the family disputes.
no matter what toils a family faces, a family will always remain a family.
i will and still regard him as my grandpa and i will make an effort to visit him during his struggles.
apart from that, i'm putting aside my other problems to focus on studying.
as for you, i hope you'll go unbrace.
i've enough to settle and every trivial matter becomes a mega gigantic one for you.
i've something more realistic to tend to.
/english paper one
/english paper two
/accounts paper one
" close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by
there is no time to waste asking why . . "
5:41:00 PM
her point of view;
Friday, August 20, 2004
ear candy; zhou jielun - ni ting de dao.
h a p p y b i r t h d a y g i r l.
yet again another birthday gone by.
now, mine's next month.
i hate dislike detest loathe being the age of seventeen.
firstly, just like the number, it is odd in several ways.
legally, i'm in the middle of doing two things.
yes, i'm totally legal to watch N16 flicks; and no, i'm illegal this year to get into clubs.
eleven months more till being free.
after eighteen, it'll be looking forward to watching RA flicks.
HAHA : )
that can wait since there's always VCDs to count on and it's once in a black/white/pink moon that i ever watch horny-rated flicks.
aiight, i'm shelving my topic on birthdays.
seeing between my timeline, i've N' levels to get through and much later would be the O's.
how relieving?
today has to be satisfactory.
apart from the un-interesting events in school, and startling weather, i'll be out later.
a birthday dinner to attend to, Zouk and prata for supper.
far-famed.
i'm all hyped out; s u p e r h y p e r s p a s t i c.
hokay, blissfully signing out.
lunch, spa and awaiting girls' night out.
ready, get set and go.
3:03:00 PM
her point of view;
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
wednesday's scheduled social studies source presentation
her birthday present; anna sui shimmer lipstick 3-dimensional formula
and once again the word studies will be left unstriked.
the only wordy text i've read is the latest style magazine.
my my, i find my month's horoscope so ironic, so exact somehow.
ughh with me.
your first instinct will be to storm in, guns a-blazing; just reflect on how much you have to lose in a confrontation, and how much you have to gain from a collaboration.
you'll keep personal routines to a minimum before mid-month and devote as much time as humanly possible to your creative gifts.
after the new moon on the 13th-14th, your life will be turned inside out, you'll experiment with new relationships, deepen a love affair and being out your hidden talents.
someone yelp help?
5:40:00 PM
her point of view;
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
i've given up on a sepia setting into something with more colour;
added a commentary box.
HOOHA.
migranes and headaches and guilt [of not studying enough] and tension and lack of time.
thanks to that, it was a school-less day for me.
i stayed home, glued myself to the television and stuffed my face with food.
i felt similar to a depressed fat princess.
but it'll be back to sheer depression.
social studies source presentation tomorrow; math tuition at seven later.
i'm only looking forward to friday and that's that.
my best's birthday/clubbing party and a celebration for us.
stay home saturday plans and swimming.
hokaye, indian dinner and tuition at seven;
xsmooches and warm clutchesx
5:59:00 PM
her point of view;
Sunday, August 15, 2004
the weekend was worth great meals and a ton of stress and tension to follow.
i can already feel much difficulty in preparing for topical test and i just can't imagine myself studying for the prelims next week.
compare a simple topical test to one with every topic in the text.
worst off, i've got numerous papers on one day itself.
it's time to cramp.
this weekends are off from going out and just staying home to stress with my very dusty textbooks and whatever notes i've taken.
apart from keeping myself locked up this weekend, it's time to sacrifice the lunches to journeys straight home from school.
it'll be a light lunch and scheduled studying from the mid afternoon till dinner time reaches.
on a much lighter note, there'd be a reward awaiting in the end.
just intense studying and sacrificing and i'll be on my way to bangkok for the septembers week holiday.
AH, something much relieving.
it'll be a holiday just me and my sister.
grrr.
alright it's time to start memorising my notes and narrations for accounts.
signing out.
10:02:00 PM
her point of view;
Saturday, August 14, 2004
Invasion of fuggnits [part3]
Clara COMPARE Chai
Excuse me,
But I think this girl has gotten influenced.
The routine of bathing punctually is no more accurate.
she complains that mosquito bites.
Well, lady.
You hasn't bathe yet!
You're not clean.
And worst, you had PE earlier on.
OMG!
You're SMELLY! .
STARING at YOU makes ME happy.
Study!
You have to STUDY.
The keyword is : STUDY.
Red blood cell: red pigment -> haemoGOBLIN.
till next time.
Allow me to overturn the table over your head.*
12:24:00 AM
her point of view;
Friday, August 13, 2004
AH.
i can feel the tension accumalating.
i've not started any revision as yet and the tension of the nearing prelims are just bothering me.
i can get moody and bothered any time.
it's an itchy feeling and i feel like i've adopted a 'devil-may-care' attitude.
i am starting to dislike myself to the very bone for my care-less attitude towards my school work and the prelims which is a week around the corner.
the only subject i can think of that's keeping me on track is biology, mainly because of it's weekly test and that enables me to frequently pick it up.
and no, i'm not reading from my very detailed textbook except i'm reading through what is only key points.
it's so risky and i just can't find time to study every subject excluding chinese, this whole last entire week.
i need:
- late night revisions for the next entire week
- afternoons of homework and assignments
- remedials?
- reading my text like it were a storybook of fairy tales
- sacrificing lunches after school
- getting my ass up for school
- no girl day out next saturday
- intense studying; and that's that.
- shoving aside my sidekicks and distractions
SO
it may be a friday but i'm going to sit by the tempting swimming pool and revise for my test next monday.
over, out and yes, very stressed and exhausted.
6:58:00 PM
her point of view;
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
it just didn't feel a slight bit like it was National Day.
but it started off razzle dazzle the night before.
it was out drinking with my sister and bhav at holland v's, Tango.
my conclusion: i can't hold my liqour.
ho ho so i won't blame it wholly on the liqour but this strawberry magueritta just felt choking.
what did i get from drinking that?
a horrible chocking experience and it's price of ten bucks for a silly small glass.
but it tasted all good like a strawberry smoothy with consequences that followed.
anyhoots, monday was inches better.
i caught the latest flick, the notebook.
on my part, i felt it was terrific.
the storyline was almost like any other you'd watch but somehow this one seemed to get my fullest attention.
the actors themselves were gorgeous and the actress is as pretty and i'd add that she's not at all bitchy since her last roll as the underlying bitch from mean girls.
[the blonde one]
so waywaywaywayway after all the towning, it was gossip session by the pool with dd and janaki and later appearences of my sister and mus.
we did what we do best and talked the night away about every single subject and made the necessary plans before d's day and janaki's leaving-bash.
though there'd be some hinders, we'll overcome them.
so again waywaywaywayway after the much gossips, it was the joyride with gabriel.
we drove to holland v planning for a drink but nah, turned back home and instead we sat down and talked.
cheap thrills outta sitting in his car, seriously.
so afterall it didn't feel so National Day-ey but all in all, it was two thumbs up.
10:25:00 AM
her point of view;
Thursday, August 05, 2004
happy birthday janet lie
i finally took a bus to school and it's a feeling of accomplishment.
i managed to drag myself out of bed at an early time of six.
and yes, six is late and it would be a burden if it were earlier.
i'm summing up day with the interesting events.
- pirate jol part II. this would be joleen in an eyepatch due to and itch of a sensitive eye.
- jol and i's toilet break: snap shot taking of both of us in eye patches that she contributed.
- yoshi lunch with the birthday girl and sidekicks.
- neoprint galore.
- facial appointment :)
all in all, nothing beats today.
cyclop jol.
"angel of god, joleen's guardian dear, to whom his/her love entrusts her here. ever this day be at her side to light and guard, to rule and guide. amen."
indulge in rest and refrain from dusty corners.
get well soon pirate!
8:28:00 PM
her point of view;
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
i'm finding myself in total confusion.
i've lorry-loads of questions, unanswered.
and sad to say, i've doubts it'll ever be answered to my satisfaction.
i'm shelving them one by one.
why/how/when/where.
repeat after me: ironic.
your keepsakes are unwanted.
it's worthless; the mouthfuls you speak to me and the artsy fartsy things you make and buy.
what are you trying to portray?
don't blame me for being ignorant and refusing to take your gifts.
it's my sudden nature.
i just don't seem to understand you.
you're complicated and very much confused.
oh and my answer to your question earlier on:
i'm not angry at you, not the slightest bit.
i did use the word disappointed though.
disappointed at the situation and your actions.
all i need now, is a breather and perhaps a distance from you.
7:34:00 PM
her point of view;
Monday, August 02, 2004
to whom it may concern.
maybe to just those who think i have the butterflies for joleen loh.
which by the way, i don't.
happy birthday joleen loh sing yi.
this is the first and last time i'd ever keep the font red.
i know you love me, admit it!
on a lighter note, today was fantabulous.
the bus ride to town was just totally hillarious with cheryl, janet jol and shu yu.
getting back home with cheryl and jol couldn't get any better :)
oh and yes, before i forget:
you sting like a bad tattoo, i wished you'd change my point of view.
that's rightfully a line from a lyric which i think so much speaks of you.
everything was far more than a mistake.
i don't need your little keepsakes that you get for me whenever you're out.
i see you should be more focused on what you're out for than actually having little time to think of me.
bag it up and save it for someone else :)
perhaps go kill some humans at it and RARR while you can.
7:01:00 PM
her point of view;
