her blemishes framed;

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

maybe ryan was right, i am shattered/torn into pieces.
i'm more on the road to distraught.
it's been two days since the vacation.
there's no more late nights, instead it'll be all mug sessions until december.
(that excludes the 28th of september, of course)
i'm on a hiatus from being a social butterfly.
and i am very upset with myself and certain people.
i've turned all emotional and on no track what so ever.
i've become a block.
i can't seem to concentrate on what's more important and i focus straight on something which doesn't even need to be looked at.
with that, i ended up with a disastrous 26th of june, seriously.
besides all the hooha, i currently hate my parents.
i wonder whether they realise the hurtful things they say to me without even a care.
i was raging mad when my father said i was fat because i ate a square of chocolate.
and this isn't the first incident, usually my mum would use the hurtful words.
it was a freaking square, the size of your baby finger and not your whole foot.
thinking my mother would say something, she did the very same.
i shouted at her and i think she very much deserved it.
they want skinny, i'll give them skinny.
they never say a thing about my sister since she psyches herself into shitting three times a day.
don't worry mummy and daddy, i'll let you watch me psyche myself into vomitting after every meal or how about i starve to let you see me turn frail.
do i have to do that to make you shut up?
BECAUSE I'M REALLY SORRY I HATE EXERCISING.
i guess i do :)

i love you very much stinking parents.
xx your very fat daughter xx

8:58:00 PM

her point of view;

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAYLEY!

it's a crazy world out there.
because it can get really boring at home, the girls and i decide to go out.
but if you thought going out was any better, it really isn't.
without a doubt, you can go out without spending much cash but what happens when you excessive window shop?
i am having a bag/ shoe obession.
more to the shoes though.
i've bought 2 pairs of shoes already this week and there's another pair i'm eyeing.
and yes, i am going to get it off the rack by this week.
on saturday, i decided to wear my 60's shoes since it had very very very much matched my outfit.
it had heels and who wouldn't adore a baby pink and black shoe?
but after much adoration and walking a short distance, there was nothing more to adore.
blisters and cuts through my toes.
all in the name of vainness, i suffered but hey, that led to more shoe shopping.
now, i can't wait to wear my hot pink heels with a huge pink sequined flower in the front.
WOOHOO.
I'M VERY OUT OF POINT, I KNOW.
I'M JUST VERY SHOE OBSESSED.
alright, i'm tired and i had a very looooooooooooooooooooonggg day.
goodnight world.

2 days and hours.

11:08:00 PM

her point of view;

Friday, June 17, 2005

i want to hope that my love-o-scope is oh-so-very-true.
WISHFUL THINKING.

love will be possible with someone you already consider as a friend.
don't push anything and things will happen naturally, with romance overwhelming you by the 22nd!
forget about being cool.
(i've already the person in mind)

would michelle, koko and hayley and mabel agree with this one-cupcake-of-a-sentence?
I DEARLY HOPE SO.

today, i played couch potato.
i sat and glued myself to sex and the city for a full four hours.
and yes, i've completed the whole series.
every episode from every season, i am done for.
the last was bittersweet.
there was less sex and more emo-moments.
I JUST LOVE.
now, i need to find something else better to occupy myself with.
this weekend, i'd be shopping, completing the unfinished tuition homework and counting the dreadful long ten days.
ALREADY, four days seem forever :))))))))))))))))

"i'm having a bad day/s,
making plans just to stop the aching."

12:28:00 AM

her point of view;

Monday, June 13, 2005

_____ AND CHOCOLATE MILK :))))))))))))

listen: can't get you out of my mind - aqualung

HELLO everyone.
i'm feeling two very different emotions at two thirty on a monday morning.
(add emoticons)
don't ask why, you wouldn't know.
due to highness, i've decided that i will swim later in the early afternoon.

about my day, it was sleepy in the afternoon, politics in the evening and excitement at night.
i finally had my first ride on a bike!
i admit, i was all goosebumps before i had even got on the bike but i risked everything and actually let josh control my life for that very ten minutes?
i allowed him to take me around the vicinity but i got tricked and instead he drove out onto the expressway.
it was fast and furious and in all drama-ness, i could see my life go past me.
i suddenly remember my childhood, moments from my youth.
HAHAHAHAHAAHA.
(add exaggeration)
but it was all good even though i panicked at every sharp turning but i wouldn't mind another thrilling ride hur?
after which, we had drinks at river valley and i learnt a few NEW english tips when writing.
like, you can never add a fullstop after a NO?
HA, i have the most wonderful bunch of friends REALLY.
i'm all but sleepy now :)))))))))))
i'm going to make a list of qualities of a boyfriend and i'm going to head straight to slumber.
(i am doing this becos' i really have no other life and gabriel never fitted into any, HAHA)
so it's worth the doing, right?

and before i forget, (no matter how much of a cow i am) i love these people very very much.
the strange and beautifooool, koko and michelle and hayley and ian and deedee :))
NOW I'M SO DONE.

2:25:00 AM

her point of view;

Friday, June 10, 2005

dig your ears: rufus wainright - ciggarettes and chocolate milk.

i had the speed-iest holiday of my entire life.
you wouldn't even want it if you won it.
yes, a day to KL and back the next.
that's what i thought before we started our dreadful journey to KL.
it wasn't that bad after the all.
the four hour trip (to and fro) was accompanied by songs from the postal service.
i <3 the postal service, SERIOUSLY.
their music is just needful.
it's so happy :)))))))).
anyways, upon arriving, we already decided that no matter how aching we were, we would still head out to shop and club.
and club and shop, we did.
we did chinatown at night and patronised the clubs with fred later.
(this was without the guidance of our parents).
fred, who resides in KL, was the host for the night.
he brought us to every hotspot.
we had THE most outstanding desert at 'the loft' (a pretty hot restaurant).
later, we drove around and even took out fifteen minutes to drive past 'transvesite-lane'.
it's a real filthy alley, some place you'd never step into.
it was covered with dirtt and transy trash.
i would bring you there if you ever needed a laugh or two.
in my conclusion, it really wasn't all a dread after all.
we did drink and we did have clean fun.

i'm done with shopping for the week.
besides that, i'm brokebrokebroke.
i'm left with saturday cash.
i'm tired out from the long trip and insufficient sleep the night before so, i'm going to take my leave :)

sleep and the postal service, coming up.

12:40:00 AM

her point of view;

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

i got my finger/toe nails painted hot pink.
i am menstruating with my ovaries having parties all day all night.
i am not in mug mood.
i am under my-own-depression.
i am single and updating you, i'm the onnly one in that position.
i've got a new watch from mummy and daddy.
i like my prada bag very much, mind you.
i started cross-stitching, now shut up.
i've the funkiest and i swear, prettiest pink/white/multicolour wedge shoes.
i got off my lazy ass to go cycling with the awfully weird.
i've been having late nights.
i finally met you and you, happy!
i collected my report book, let's not start.
i missed the motorbike ride.
i played basketball; and this time, i made every effort to jump and run and catch.
i have been excessively going out.
i have the urge to shop-till-i-drop-dead.
i finally found out that my friend is singapore's best hockey talent, awesome!
i eat cheese. (i'm sorry ko!)
i fuckingly have a friend who literally falls where ever she goes, talk about jinx.
i am finally leaving singapore, goodbye.
OH, and lastly, i have really cute friends.

float like a butterfly sting like a bee just sent you a Nudge!
float like a butterfly sting like a bee just sent you a Nudge!
float like a butterfly sting like a bee just sent you a Nudge!

float like a butterfly sting like a bee says:
HAHA

float like a butterfly sting like a bee says:
i love doing that

float like a butterfly sting like a bee just sent you a Nudge!

float like a butterfly sting like a bee says:
i love the nudge

I, Social Butterfly says:
HAHA
what the fuckkk are you doingggg

float like a butterfly sting like a bee says:
im being cute n spontaneous

(and inbetween, he sent me about 10 dancing emoticons and more nudging to follow.)
I, Social Butterfly would be me.
float like a butterfly sting like a bee would obviously be kenneth.

1:26:00 AM

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