superficial-misfit

2005-12-29T00:31:00.001+08:00

with a new year comes a new blog.do the necessary,chaiii.blogspot.comLOVE.

2005-12-29T00:31:00.000+08:00

with a new year comes a new blog.do the necessary,chaiii.blogspot.comLOVE.

2005-11-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

Scenes from halloween @ zouk.Enjoi!

2005-10-28T14:25:00.000+08:00

200 miles away from home.200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs, but you don't care at all, at all.you wouldn't even smile if i were screaming as the water filled my lungs, my lungs.you demand to be chased for your love.my desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.but you don't care at all.there's nothing i can do to draw you close to me.can you take this silence

2005-10-23T15:38:00.000+08:00

gabriel, gabriel and gabriel.that's all that matters.

2005-10-02T16:38:00.000+08:00

(@ KM8)and it has been 9 lengthy days since i last posted an entry.with that week or so, it has beeennn very fruitful.1. i mugged, really.but with the mugging, came the snacking.and with the snacking, came the sudden gain in weight.2. i forced myself to school for the night study session from 5pm to 8pm.it's the onlyy option i have if i want full force concentration.and better, i do not have food

2005-09-23T13:52:00.000+08:00

i will not remove any entry in my blog.(it is where i form my opinions)first, your argument has no substance?with your intelligence level, i will phrase things simple for your understanding.i brought up the past to remind you of how stupid (it's the only word) an error you made.everyone would understand the meaning of the term: 'how now brown cow'but my dear, you didn't.in a second, you got

2005-09-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

you're the most superficial fucknut i've ever come across and and an insecure mofo to add.did you think that my paragraph below was directed to mirdat?I'M SORRY BUT MIRDAT IS SO PASSE.here's a little lowdown for you, just so you know.i was aware that mirdat is in prison serving time.i asked you because you would know better and it'll help to clarify with you instead of believing what others

2005-09-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

8 days till 8teen." <3 your weekly polyester bride."

2005-09-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

i've my say and this is my space, so in all randomness, i have an issue to address.the first being:with the recent launch of the 'yellow ribbon' project, it has made me ponder about a particular person.due to the nature of the issue, the person will be left unnamed.my school is somewhat in support of the project.a percentage of the school community wears a yellow ribbon and during our breaks, a

2005-09-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

let's get emotional girls to wear mood rings.miss tai, javier will return to civilisation soon.so do yourself a favour, stop talking to lilo or your bolster.i'm a table and a phone call away if you get the spasms :)))

2005-09-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

(i look like i belong to a female half-way house)thursday and joleen and i and swimming and eye bags and unwashed and unblown hair and a ton of problems behind that smile.a few questions that i need to knowhow you could ever hurt me soi need to know what i've done wrongand how long it's been going onwas it that i never paid enough attentionor did i not give enough affectionnot only will your

2005-09-11T12:52:00.000+08:00

everything i can think of is going absolute downhill.be it physically, mentally and emotionally.i'm mentally not prepared for the examinations scheduled for the next two weeks.i'm mentally not prepared for the stress and very hard mug sessions i will need to succumb to, start from monday.i'm mentally not prepared to hear HER out.i'm mentally not prepared for my father's uptight decision on

2005-09-11T00:51:00.000+08:00

(in angst and raging emotions, but i will blog for the sake of the absolutely fanfuckingtastic events that've bypassed this week)thursday, jol came over for a swim and my mummy made both of us dinner.friday, narene did just the same but we dinner-ed at sentosa in the evening and sat by the beach for drinks with michelle and koko.saturday, we went yacht-ing, which turned out quite an experience!

2005-09-08T20:32:00.001+08:00

hello folks. jojo hereshe's treating me to cheap cheap spanish food tmr after church (:that sweet girl has new pix of me on her pink wall. along with 'red carpet'ish one with gwennice. too bad i don't frame my photos on my walls. i would need 200 green frames.i have some sound bites for all you.nelly furtado - one-trick pony. has been on repeat on my ipod since forever (infact her folklore cd)

2005-09-08T12:13:00.000+08:00

a conversation on MSN between myself and carleel.me: it's been so long the last time i spoke to you, my hair couldn't even be tied not even a single strand and now, it can be tied into a nice ponytail! PONYTAIL! that's how long you've not spoken to mecarleel: haha okayy iliketoexaggerate@hotmail.com!me: you're an arsecarleel: spank you ---cutEXTREME

2005-09-07T14:39:00.000+08:00

(audiocandy; maria mena - sorry)vauge sound of rainpierces through my song againbut i get distracted by the way her toes move when she playsso i let it burni just poured my heart outthere's bits of it on the floorand i take what's left of it and rinse it under cold waterand call him up for moreand i say baby, yes i feel stupid to call you, but i'm lonelyand i don't think you meant it when you

2005-09-06T17:45:00.000+08:00

(this is going to be a very emotional entry)besides family being on the first priority, i have come to realise how much my friends weigh just the same.it is without doubt that your family will stand by you no matter how small or large an issue you have, even though they do not constantly remind you.think, would your girl friends be there when you're caught in a large issue you can't handle on

2005-09-05T17:01:00.000+08:00

(i'm all ears and i'm all scars to hear you tell me "________". i'm hanging on. but you still know the way to make my makeup run.)read the quote above and make me feel a little better please.on a lesser depressing and a much more ecstatic note, zaharri got hitched on sunday afternoon.things are going to alter.due to hitch, there will be no more coffee meet-ups or talking on the phone at odd

2005-09-01T19:16:00.000+08:00

"there's always something so tragicabout a hopeless romantic."

2005-08-28T17:12:00.000+08:00

i had my first driving lesson today.since i'm not currently of the illegal age for driving but, turning 18 in exactly a month from now, i decided i might prepare earlier.daddy brought me out to teach me the basics of driving.this would make it much more easier when i officially and legally learn through the driving centres.i had the seat to myself and everything was in my control.we headed to

2005-08-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

We, girls on a mission!

2005-08-17T16:11:00.000+08:00

the reason to me blogging on an odd day is because of the sheer boredom.i've several unrelated topics i can talk about.each in a paragraph, respectively.STRESS. the o'levels are very around the corner, very.the english orals are due monday.the mugging has not begun, even though you've heard me repeat myself time and time that i would start.i have not done any revision whatsoever.what's better, i

2005-08-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

there are many things a girl can't wait for.it could be a pair of pretty shoes on the rack that she'll buy over the weekend, an opportunity to dress to kill, her prom night, love and then marriage.(there are probably the inbetweens which i missed out on)obviously, every girl awaits the day of her marriage.it's tears and joy when you walk down the aisle in the most glamourous, undescribable gown

2005-08-10T16:47:00.000+08:00

to me, pictures speak louder than words.(midnight works on the 8th of august - 9th of august)this years' national day is by far the best, compared to previous years where i stay home and pretend to be happy.after counting, i've seen the fireworks three times.besides the whole firework encounter, i finally met up with joljoljol.i have been dying to be held in her clutches and in the warmth of her

2005-08-07T16:17:00.000+08:00

i might only update over the weekends.seems like everything is rushing.be it days, be it the months, be it my birthday, be it the dreaded assignments and revisions, be it the preliminary examinations, be it the graduation photoshoot and be it everything that seems like it's rushing for the o'levels to come.this week will be short and long, the irony.talking about mugging, my schedule is not being

2005-07-10T17:57:00.000+08:00

updating is really such a hassle.here's the lowdown for the month/s:ONE: i've been desperately trying to follow my mugging schedule, which turns out only worked for a day.TWO: rollerblading has become my past time.yes, it helps me kill time and calories.THREE: i'm on a diet.and no, you didn't hear wrongly.i can proudly say i haven't eaten rice for 5 days already.that's the main lowdown.yesterday

2005-06-28T20:58:00.000+08:00

maybe ryan was right, i am shattered/torn into pieces.i'm more on the road to distraught.it's been two days since the vacation.there's no more late nights, instead it'll be all mug sessions until december.(that excludes the 28th of september, of course)i'm on a hiatus from being a social butterfly.and i am very upset with myself and certain people.i've turned all emotional and on no track what so

2005-06-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAYLEY!it's a crazy world out there.because it can get really boring at home, the girls and i decide to go out.but if you thought going out was any better, it really isn't.without a doubt, you can go out without spending much cash but what happens when you excessive window shop?i am having a bag/ shoe obession.more to the shoes though.i've bought 2 pairs of shoes already this week

2005-06-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

i want to hope that my love-o-scope is oh-so-very-true.WISHFUL THINKING.love will be possible with someone you already consider as a friend.don't push anything and things will happen naturally, with romance overwhelming you by the 22nd!forget about being cool.(i've already the person in mind)would michelle, koko and hayley and mabel agree with this one-cupcake-of-a-sentence?I DEARLY HOPE SO.today

2005-06-13T02:25:00.000+08:00

_____ AND CHOCOLATE MILK :))))))))))))listen: can't get you out of my mind - aqualungHELLO everyone.i'm feeling two very different emotions at two thirty on a monday morning.(add emoticons)don't ask why, you wouldn't know.due to highness, i've decided that i will swim later in the early afternoon.about my day, it was sleepy in the afternoon, politics in the evening and excitement at night.i

2005-06-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

dig your ears: rufus wainright - ciggarettes and chocolate milk.i had the speed-iest holiday of my entire life.you wouldn't even want it if you won it.yes, a day to KL and back the next.that's what i thought before we started our dreadful journey to KL.it wasn't that bad after the all.the four hour trip (to and fro) was accompanied by songs from the postal service.i <3 the postal service,

2005-06-07T01:26:00.000+08:00

i got my finger/toe nails painted hot pink.i am menstruating with my ovaries having parties all day all night.i am not in mug mood.i am under my-own-depression.i am single and updating you, i'm the onnly one in that position.i've got a new watch from mummy and daddy.i like my prada bag very much, mind you.i started cross-stitching, now shut up.i've the funkiest and i swear, prettiest pink/white/

2005-05-24T15:18:00.000+08:00

dig it: gorillaz - feel good inc.sha-ka-lak-ka-ka-ka.it has been forever since i last posted an entry.i've been pretending to be occupied with study schedules but in actual fact, i've not been.more to it, i've beeen eating and sleeping and the vicious cycle repeats itself.so two real long weeks has gone by, what a quick fly.within it, i've done both fruitful and not so fruitful stuff.i've shopped

2005-05-13T12:35:00.000+08:00

I DETEST THIS WEEK. I DETEST THIS WEEK.I DETEST THIS WEEK.I DETEST THIS WEEK.I DETEST THIS WEEK.did i mention, i detest this week?TO HELL WITH EXAMS.(i just typed an essay long entry and decided to backspace it all.)it would really make no difference if i were to whine about it.i didn't study so i'm going to face that melodic music.(i hope i get knocked down by a black/white mini cooper before

2005-05-09T19:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SOFT-SHELLCRAB : )), also known as neng.today was absolutely hillarioushillarioushillarious.school was a-okay, despite it being a monday.i'm starting to get use to it, yes, without absent-ing myself REGULARLY.i've so much to look forward to, SCHOOL.the absolute joy i get, friends.so PE lesson was hectic even though we were on 'medical leave'.we carried and transferred equipment

2005-05-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

today, i watched 'sliding doors'.call me very late, but i didn't care much for watching it 4 years ago.i only decided to watch it for three reasons.one being, boredom started to kick in after i awoke.another being, my sister had rented the dvd and it was staring at me from behind the wooden panel.and the third being, my sister paid for the rental.so in others words, if i missed watching it, it

2005-05-03T19:52:00.000+08:00

dig your ears: rooster - come get someLAUGH and read and LAUGH and read, and don't understand our inside joke.HAHA.the weekends' been a bunch of fruits :)i would like to add that friday, saturday and monday were the best la.though out with the same female, i swear it will get better.as usual, i was late :((HELL, it's my nature)after the lateness, we first decided to get her pretty farmer shirt.we

2005-04-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

so i'm back after _ days.the midyearexaminations are in days from today; you can actually count them down without using your fingers and HELL, that's scary.besides, i've not mugged at all, AT ALL.i've been passing through by sleeping and eating and telly watching and msn-ing :)and seriously, it makes time fly by fast.faster than you know it, and it's the three day weekend.i could hardly sleep on

2005-04-24T15:34:00.000+08:00

to US, it's hillarious and trust us, very very very time consuming.(private joke, you see)i had to edit the names though, so it's me and her for you.it may seem that at points, it may be rather random, certain parts are taken from real life incidents and others are just downright silly but to HELL, we're lians for life :)SERIOUSLY, don't mind us.girls just wanna have fun and besides, it's a

2005-04-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

i wasn't wonderwoman in the end, i didn't run from home.instead, i made a bible of excuses so i'd be able to get out of the house the next afternoon."mummy, i'd have to go over to a friends' to do some uncompleted geography assignments since i haven't been in school the past two days, don't expect me home early cos' i might return late."i'm not happy lying though.and for that, i was given cash

2005-04-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

i'm running away from home tomorrow.i've packed my bags and i'm ready to run.i'm exhausted having to listen to my mothers' incessant nagging.i've put up with it enough and still, she hasn't found time to just shut up.where ever i go, she has something to add.even if it were to be the smallest thing, she'd still go for it.take for example, i didn't switch off the fan cos' i was in a hurry and

2005-04-12T15:03:00.000+08:00

SURPRISE?!don't expect me to be all sugar and spice and everything nice, anymore.enough is seriously ENOUGH.how many worlds do you want the best out of?just because you're younger and we're all older, doesn't mean we're going to shower you with love and pretend it's only just your immaturity.and then later, get a tiny piece from all ___ (fill in the numerics yourself, because you should only know

2005-04-10T15:35:00.000+08:00

i'm running out of time; time to study and time for retail therapy.i'm running out of clothes; i need tops and bottoms and belts and three quarts and lingerie.i'm running out of shoes; pumps and heals and maryjanes and birkenstocks and i'd love a pair of manolo blahniks and the blackpink adidas sports.i'm running out of earrings; more sixties black and white earrings would do good.i'm running out

2005-04-04T16:03:00.000+08:00

i am going against myself.besides not doing ANY self-study at home, i can't pay at least five minutes of attention in class?my mind and fingers linger off, to where?my mobile ):understanding that mathematics is a really vital subject in order to get to poly, i do not do anything to improve my basics.my grades are starting to dip.today, i got home and was eager to complete the chemistry worksheet

2005-04-03T16:22:00.000+08:00

i've been watching your world from afari've been trying to be where you areand i've been secretly falling apartunseento me, you're strange and you're beautifulyou'd be so perfect with mebut you just can't seeyou turn every head but you don't see mei'll put a spell on youyou'll fall asleepwhen i put a spell on youand when i wake you i'll be the first thing you seeand you'll realize that you love

2005-04-02T13:29:00.000+08:00

last night is captioned FUCKING HECTIC.let's write out the misery (just in case some wanted to know whathappened);six girls (myself, koko, mich, azy and stacey and hostess, amy) at amy's house.two large bottles of vodka (a horrid 80% alcohol content), nine cans of barons and food for a sidekick.indian poker and black jack and betting on ten cents.an hour or two later, azy's gone and gone off

2005-03-31T22:25:00.000+08:00

CUPID, DON'T FUCK WITH ME!today, i feel a notch higher than happy.that'll make me trigger happy?NOT SO TRIGGER THOUGH, after i knowingly ditched my diet and exercise today.yes, i mawkishly gobbled two bars of chocolate down.who can't resist a bar of golden honeycomb covered in cadbury dairy chocolate milk, and make it TWO bars for that matter.later on in the evening, i couldn't help but feel

2005-03-30T15:46:00.000+08:00

always there to carewould do anything in this world for medidn't matter, what, when, or whereyou were therei never thought we'd part from the arguments i'd startwhen i just wanted to get some attentionwell i'm sorry baby for bitchin'still/ j.lo

2005-03-29T16:22:00.000+08:00

HOO-EFFING-RAY.i have found something entirely productive to do inbetween minutes of studying and glueing myself to the telly.EXERCISE!if it's not already obvious, then let me remind you, i'm putting on the extras.SERIOUSLY, WHY THE EFF IS FANFUCKINGTASTIC FOOD ALWAYS INFRONT OF MY EYES.someone needs to trigger off the visual cortex in my brain.i wouldn't picture food anymore (:SO, exercise has

2005-03-27T01:02:00.000+08:00

AND I'M SURROUNDED BY A MILLION PEOPLE,I STILL FEEL ALONE,LET ME GO HOME.OH, and did i mention that i've been feeling effing miserable these past few days.OH, yes i am.i've been feeling downer than down in the dumps.WHO AM I TO EFFING TALK TO?i've got my fling sixties' earrings; i couldn't care less about the damned surroundings (:RIGHT.

2005-03-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

a saturday evening.the late night with an early morning at sentosa's pelawan beach.five girls.arguements about the red/yellow/blue line?'spin the bottle' and give endless pecks :*a lost and found bag of peanuts.we'll wee at every bush and mark our territory.godly deafening thai's and non-stop-talking mutts.eighteen cans of carlsberg and tiger.ramen noodles and chips and cough mixture-tasting jack

2005-03-15T01:17:00.000+08:00

right.to put you'll slightly off, i haven't had a bathe for coming two days.to be precise it'll be three quarters of a day + a full day, of not touching the shower.back on track.no word can describe how you feel when you're at a funeral.no word can describe how you feel when you're at a crematorium and you're faced with blocks and blocks of the collumbariums.no word can describe how you feel when

2005-03-12T16:46:00.000+08:00

quoting from matts: "this is a very intense moment."yet again, i could agreee further."clara, kai has passed on already."i felt emotionless when i had received that very message.it was when i had just got out of bed and ready to hit the shower.ready to start a new day, mission day at school and even better, in the afternoon i'd be in the hospital to see him with the normanton park reunion.but for

2005-03-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

Lord,as your friend Lazarus lay ill, others remarked to you that "the one you love is ill".people said: "see his love for him."today, lord jesus, we pray for kaikai because he the one you love is ill.we ask you to bring your healing and peace to him and his family.amen.kai;i spoke to you but unaware of whether you heard me, i meant my every word.i very much do believe that no matter how much you

2005-02-20T13:03:00.000+08:00

i am thinking for you; on your behalf. (that's if you get my drift)i wonder what she says to youwhen you're alone togethermy imagination is so cruelpicturing you holding handsand doing the things that we plannedsharing everything day and nightmaking memoriesyou're playing love scenes without meand she's got my rolestarring as your leading ladyand stealing the showi wanted to be with you foreverwe

2005-02-14T20:40:00.000+08:00

it's valentine's and we all have to go to school :|HOW LOVELY :)today, i saw the cutest (and i mean cutest) indian guy outside cineleisure.so he looks a little northern indian with sagged pants and worn with a brown striped polo tee on the top.he's got the neatest brown hair and smile :)and now he's gone, just like that.one step, two step, three steps and a distance.someone shout 'serendipity'

2005-02-13T01:33:00.000+08:00

i like my beef noodles without beansprouts and spring onions.i like my beef noodles mixed with both the meatball and the beef.i detest ice lemon tea.but today, for some unknown reason:i had my beef noodles with extra beansprouts and spring onions without knowing i had asked for more.i had my drink changed to ice lemon tea.then i walked away slowly, forgetting my drink and my change from the

2005-02-12T14:38:00.000+08:00

is other people's pain, your pleasure?i'm starting to think it is becoming.i was pretty back to normal for the past week, except for the fact that it does ring in my head once too many times but not until we spoke last night.that convo just made me feel more angsty then i had ever been.it's thanks to that late hour, i wasn't screaming my inners out.you tried to reason out everything.no matter

2005-02-10T18:28:00.000+08:00

] this wasn't meant to be. despite already having the same jacket but in different gender fits and different buy times, we met wearing the same outfit; adidas jacket and adidas shorts. HOW EFFING COINCIDENTAL. we felt awfullyawfullyawfully stupid? to update, my chinese new year has been oh-so-ever-eventful. last year, i visited one house with merely earning forty dollars. this year, i visited NO

2005-02-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

i am next on the depression list. and therefore, i am not going to blog the next few hours/ days/ weeks and hopefully it would not turn into months. as it is, my last post was end-january. and here are my little updates: 1. i got my ugly wuggly fuggly tattoo covered up. 2. a new hair-do which i am loving. 3. i am single and no valentine's date whatsoever. 4. i am not mugging and i'm far from

2005-01-31T16:04:00.000+08:00

__________________________________________________________________________________ the weekend was tough. misconceptions and misunderstandings and assumptions, what could get any better? i could hardly believe what i had heard, really. it seemed so much like a fraud and for a second, i thought i was being swindled and hoaxed. then again, it wasn't. the sadness shouldered the anger. WHY? i

2005-01-30T11:39:00.000+08:00

you called to say you wanted out well, I can't say I blame you now sometimes you've got to fold before you're found out well thanks for waiting this long to show yourself cause now that I can see you I don't think you're worth a second glance so much for all the promises you made, they served you well now you're gone and they're wasted on me so much for your endearing sense of charm it served

2005-01-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

jocelyn; wrong guess, it isn't alicia i was directing it to. and on note, this is a temporary layout till i find the better:) and if you're wondering, tag board's on your right column. "your feminist discussions; click to tag" nuff' said.

2005-01-23T15:51:00.000+08:00

afternoon; rushed to gab's house in PE shorts and a largee tee wondering if that whore turned up at his house. apparently not. he wasn't suppose to know i'd be there searching for her but surprisingly/coincidentally, he saw me. frights of our lives we had. followed by a little uptightness and then it all simmered down. i seriously couldn't help but laugh at his annoyance and parroting what hayley

2005-01-16T16:38:00.000+08:00

sometimes I get emotional sometimes I do some stupid things sometimes I say what I should just keep inside sometimes I'm sad, about everything sometimes I'm mad, and break some things sorry times ten, but you just got in the way don't give up no, running away I won't hurt you sometimes I'm just a pain and that's the way it is that's just the way I am sometimes I feel like

2005-01-14T17:50:00.000+08:00

i feel unearthly :| i have the urge to sit straight at my study table and mug. but i'm unsure which subject to begin with or what topic to revise through first. i've countless topics/subjects to choose from but i'm being hell undecisive. so i've come to my conclusion; i am not picking anything up today. it's friday and i should be relaxing in comfort. monday i'll begin my quest to mugmugmug at

2005-01-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

this is by far the most fruitful week of the month :) putting aside the unhealthy days i had last week which ended me up in a hospital bed and getting dripped. early in the week, mummy and i got myself an angora rabbit. a black and white one; and nothing can explain how right her black spots are on her furry body. [i'd probably post up snapshots later in the week] so school's been hectic.

2005-01-06T21:37:00.000+08:00

from a slight fever that occured on wednesday night, i had no idea i would be hospitalized the following night for what we (myself, parents and 3 doctors) thought was an acute appendicitis. appendicitis: inflammation of the appendix of the intestine. appendix: a small tube of tissue that forms an outgrowth of the intestine. for me, it was shock and pain. i could hardly keep myself up. the pain

2005-01-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

my nails broke. MAJOR DISASTER. i'm in no mood whatsoever to blog :( and if you're asking, school turned out fuunkyfresh and supersonic on monday. but as the week passes through and the pressure and tension is on, it's getting all draggy. i want the vacations or least get outta this school already. it's high time i started getting rid of the carbs in my diet, burning off the fat and getting

2005-01-02T15:54:00.000+08:00

happyyyy phuckingggfantabuloussss nnnneeww yearrrr <3, !euqinimod

2004-12-27T17:38:00.000+08:00

so following the news updates and reports on your telly, you would've known that part of asia's having one hell of an environmental catastrophe. earthquakes and tsunami's and baby tidal waves and powerful winds and everything's left a turmoil. you start to think of how much shock the people are in, the amount of damage it has caused whether it has to do with you physically, your own home and most

2004-12-25T03:16:00.000+08:00

merry x'mas this is by far, a different christmas for me. the usual would be a bigbigbig dinner with the fams, midnight mass at saint ignatius and massive chilling out after 1am OR being overseas. but with a somewhat different twist to it, the dinner remained but only my mother's tastebuds couldn't get abit of the food; she was ill. so due to the last minute uncalled for events, daddy lesley and

2004-12-21T01:49:00.000+08:00

BEEEEG. i did not size these absolutely excrutiatingly orgasmic pictures so scroll left and right to view. my apologies, viewers. ORGASMIC.

2004-12-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

earlier in the week; friday. i couldn't shove away the nervousness off my face/shoulders/shaking legs/spastic movements. it was the N'level results which earned me six points, $150 for the Good Progress Award and much love from my parents. afterafterafter was followed by lunch and shopping with the chopstick-sisters. later in the week; saturday. my microplasma bud joleen's plans were

2004-12-16T16:17:00.000+08:00

HOLYCOWS and GOATS. i could scream. i'm so so so so so so so loving this song; more like i walk the boulevard of lonliness. i'm restless and there's totally nothing i can do; i'm plain bored. i'm itchy and i need to buy this pair of shorts i was eyeing yesterday. i'm fucking nervous; my results will be out after two thirty tmr. i'm having the worst flu and there's tissues covering the computer

2004-12-14T17:30:00.000+08:00

my <3 won't be your rag doll anymore. by the very way, this is a temp template job. till i find something more eyecatching, get hooked.

2004-12-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

it's definately what a girl wants. OR what i want exactly. cleo's double cover magazine for the month of january. first and foremost, i'll make my apologies to those who've tolerated my obsessions for taufik and his renditions. then again, i need to have this magazine by tomorrow before it gets snapped off the racks by hungry taufik fans. HA. christmas is around the corner and i'm every bit

2004-12-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

RELATIONSHIPS; you start to think about relationships and partial lobotomies, two different ideas that might be perfect together. HA, like strawberries and sugar :) think how much easier it would be if there was some surgical procedure to whisk away all the ugly memories and mistakes and leave only behind the fun trips and special holidays. but until that day arrives, what are you going to do

2004-12-06T01:50:00.000+08:00

first; you so gotta read the scroll on the right of this text box :) second; why not upgrade your msn messenger to a version seven. i might have been slow but it's seriously a different sort and a waywayway cooler one. third; needless to say, i have a crush on taufik. don't you think he's smooth, the way he sings, the way he moves. i like. fourth; i'm mad over my month's paycheck. not only did i

2004-11-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

cheap-thrill rides; board games; card games; food-fest; laughters and giggles and the dorkiest company (and i mean hippy too) what else could i ask for? i squeezed in a movie slot on sunday; 945pm. two cars, three girls, three guys and bridget jones diary. gabriel and myself; hayley and merv; joycelyn and julius. it was zsazsazsu! later in the day which turned out to be monday, it was moreee

2004-11-22T01:15:00.000+08:00

OMG. something mich found on an online forum which i find highly amusing and perhaps every inch, a fact. alright, it's basically an experience that an NTU student had when she paid zara a visit in the afternoon of a weekday during it's first local opening in ngee ann city. and i do not beg to differ that it has changed in anyway. the ladies' fitting room; the queue for the fitting room was

2004-11-21T01:44:00.000+08:00

a few meaningful lines; somehow. lover's in love, and the other's run away, lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay. i will be ignored and i will be denied and i could be erased i could be brushed aside and i will get scared and i will get shoved down but i feel like i do because you push me around. i'm starting to ignore you i doubted you so long i'm tired of over-thinking i know we don't

2004-11-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

so i've resigned zara and i've quite gotten over it; QUITE. YES, the sadness weighs down on me when my mind starts to linger. the supersupersuper early mornings, the never-ending bus journey filled with the employed, the non-stop ranting, definately the staff, the cheap thrill of having to look at your favourite clothings in the boutique and not being able to afford even the cheapest, the hour

2004-11-16T01:47:00.000+08:00

HA, i can finally breathe easy again. i tendered my resignation; i'm so over and out with zara. i'd thought it'll be all glam and the pay would be a big bonus, but i guess i was so wrong about it. glam; maybe. the big bonus; a total opposite. i'm suspecting peanuts when they've settled all the salary figuring. apparently, i'm missing my zara staff :( nothing can describe them. they eased

2004-11-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

sudden but miraculous off day from work. twenty minutes inspection with berty. late night talk with jeremy; reminiscing on the bitter sweet past. afternoon-ed with dee and jeremy. we were the perfect trio; we bitched f a b u l o u s; it's a necessity to have more of these.

2004-11-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

there are the certainly positive reasons for working and then again there are the dead rotten ones chucked aside. the week's past fast; faster then i thought. maybe it's due to the long sloggish hours at work; but then again i've hardly been taking note of the time. that's unless it's seconds nearing my break slot. work's been good, work's been bad. the absolute positive: it's a cheap thrill

2004-11-03T16:14:00.000+08:00

finally; two days off from work. it may seem like oh-nothing but it's a great big deal to me. i've beeen slogging it out during my damned afternoon shifts. on the bright side, there's no early mornings without breakfast. i've been eating and drinking waywayway lesser then usual. i eat a meal a day since i leave out my lunch break and there's only dinner i go for. drinking has reduced from litres

2004-10-31T15:30:00.000+08:00

words can't describe the full blown exhaustion at work. apart from the long hours that start at eight in the morning, my shoes have been hurting me. i've collected seven blisters and five water bubbles on my achey breaky feet. so much for the saying: 'hurt your shoes before they hurt you' that itself didn't help at all. my patience is running out and i'm losing it all; i'm ready to resign but the

2004-10-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

crabcakes! this is my temporary template for the time being; my butterfingers deleted my blog's html and i'm living on what i can rememeber. down goes my commentary box and links. revamping by this week; i promise. stay tuned :) here's my saturday for you; i'm ecstatic! i've a day more to overcome till i've my work meeting on tuesday. two more days till official work shift begins. tomorrow

2004-10-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

it's beeen raining rivers and valleys but nothings stopping me fromm my urge of job hunting. alright, so alot's been going on this week but i'm way enjoying the positivity :) it's all about interviews after interviews; callback after callback. seems everything's beeen easy and goingg through. holy rainbowed cows, i did get a confirmation that i'd be getting the job. what it is, i'll keep that a

2004-10-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

i particularly hate this sunday! saturday was just zsazsazsu. i met everina and we hitt town. we did quite abit of walking and travelling from place to place. HA, and the ghastly bit of everything was the shoes we had on. rina's slippes kept cutting into her skin and my mary janes were out to bind my feet! nevertheless, we still continued to walk our way throughout town. the gossip eased our

2004-10-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

over, over and done with. it's was twenty minutes of cold sweat just sitting through the interview. but i'm keeping my fingers crossed that i'd clinch this job. i've this gut feeling i'm going to enjoy it no matter how tedious it's going to get. HA, i really want this :) AND i bought myself a pair of tweeded black and white mary janes; what could get better? i'm taking it for a walk

2004-10-13T01:43:00.000+08:00

i've never come acrossed a person like you. somewhat distinct; in a negative way. what happened to the old you? you made the people around you smile with glee with the silly things you did or say. your jokes and your mispronounciations and the little things you did for me; everything i can still dig out. but i'm amazed at what other feigns you played. you lie through your teeth to everyone and

2004-10-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

i will be a happy girl for the next three months; not until the results are out in november, i guess? apart from my uterine lining slothings, i'm still pretty contented over everything and anything. today was my last paper, accounts which ended up a big booboo. i mugged and remembered every format that was from my notes but still the paper didn't match up to what i had mugged for. accounts which

2004-10-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

to you, again. yes; i said browncow. but did i mention the words that came before it 'how now' how now brown cow is an idiom, dear. i know my limits. apart from the bickering over the browncows when currently you know it sure isn't him, i don't ask him for things. you make it seem like i insist on getting things from him every now and then. and how'd you know he said he'd buy whatever ages ago

2004-10-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

a reply to someone who oooomphed in my commentary box; first and foremost, before the accusations, 'hownowbrowncow' was a term i used. i don't need numerous browncows since it's a term. go figure what it is first. i don't need your misunderstanding. out of the point, but i've someone else. secondly, who said i'd be taking him away from you? i don't miss him nor want him back. you can keep him :)

2004-10-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

one: i didn't follow my schedule of covering two hours of mugging. two: we only left the condo at a late seven to have dinner. three: i'm light-hearted since dinner turned out to be delicious; thai cuisine. four: my favourite threethreethree. five: i detest my text nowadays and devour every sight of food :( six: guest appearances of ali and iqbal. seven: cabbed home with iqbal. eight: chilling

2004-10-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

i thought twice when i stepped into zara again. the top that i've been displaying as my msn picture; i didn't get it. i replaced it with a cheaper buy and a less tramp-ish look, yet sososo gorgeous. fatiguefatiguefatigue! i've not mugged at all. i can think of is retail therapy and partying countless times in a day/hour/minute/second. the only events that keep me up and going. the sound of

2004-09-28T21:12:00.000+08:00

this is time consuming but oh hell with it, i need to do this. appreciates shuyu shuwen janet rachel everina munyoke neng everina dianna denise evan farhan ramdan justin ali mark iqbal eric hayley chieh leonard matthew antriksh gen gwen keith kenneth lutfi maysi etcetcetc; for the birthday wishes and late night messages. apologies to those i miss out but you're still appreciated! appreciates dd